Another Day In Service To Her Master

Let’s begin:

i have a weekly schedule of tasks and chores and it is the structure that i very much enjoy. Today is Tuesday.

Tuesday’s daily chores are cleaning the Living Room, Dining Room, and Kitchen; including dusting, vacuuming and washing of all floors. Complete any unfinished chores from Monday if needed, and lastly weekly grocery shopping. This day in particular i also must bring the car in for its regularly scheduled maintenance. As instructed by Master, this service needs to be done this week. As he has travel plans for the weekend.

Service has been scheduled for Tuesday 7:30 am. and i will be waiting for the service to be complete.

i made the appointment early so not to disrupt too much of the days usual routine.

5:30am: Alarm goes off. Master rises, come to my side of the bed and kisses me good morning… The fun stuff…  While Master dresses for work i make His coffee and prepare His lunch.

5:45am: Master enters the kitchen, i kneel and wish Him a good morning.  We continue with O/our spoken ritual…. Master asks if i am ready to serve Him, i respectfully reply and He invites me to stand and serve Him… i stand, kiss him, tell Him i love Him and will miss Him and walk Him to the door.

 i absolutely love beginning my day with this amazing affirmation of our relationship and roles.

5:55 i see Master to the door, remind Him of my appointment, He smiles says, “good girl, be safe and I love you too.”

6:00: Ready to serve. Wash my face, brush my hair and teeth and enjoy a nice cup of coffee. Make the bed and pick up any clothing. Remove any trash from the night before and tidy up the master bathroom.. Dress, make-up and hair done.  Make sure coffee is set and read for when my dad wakes up. Although i expect to be home before he wakes i also leave him a note reminding him of my appointment.

7:00am: Leave for my service appointment.

7:25am: i arrive and wait for the service bay to open.  Being early means i was On-Time… a rule in Master’s home.

7:35am: I am checked in and waiting in the customer lounge for the car. So far the day is going exactly as planned. So i settle in and decide now would be a good time to do my daily meditation. Beads in hand i am feeling calm, centered and happy with the start of my day.

8:00am: Still waiting for the car, not concerned. This service usually takes about 1 to 2 hours tops.  Time to break out the kindle.  i’m not good with idle time as you can see, so i take these times to do things that specifically bring me pleasure. Sort of stealing some me time. Meditation and reading… All is good in the universe…

9:00am: Still waiting. Now i’m beginning to get concerned about the time and the chores still waiting for me at home.  Just then the customer service person comes by to give me the estimate i requested to have the cracked driver side mirror replaced.  After instructing her to order the replacement, i immediately inquired about the car.

She replied, “Oh they are taking it for a car wash, with all the snow and salt i sent them to wash it. Free of course, it should be back in just a few minutes.” So although i was a bit irritated at the time delay, i smiled graciously and thanked her for the car wash. Then i called to check in with Master.

9:15am: Call Master at work; updated him on the status of the car and the estimate, informed him that i took care of the order and will make another appointment once the part is in. Then i advised Him of my plans to do the grocery shopping on my way home and said i would text Him as soon as the car was finished. Hanging up with Master i then called my dad who was at home wondering where i was. I checked in on him and let him know i would be home shortly.

9:30am: STILL NO CAR UGH!!! Now i’m thinking i should have waited to do my meditation because my peaceful calm was starting to get a little shaky…  The service rep appears again and say – “Oh i’m just waiting for them to come and give me the keys, why don’t we just settle up the bill and then we can get you right on your way.” Again, only with a deep breath first, i smile graciously, say thank you and follow her to the cashier.  Finish up with a 10% discount on my service for the long wait and back to my seat to wait again for the keys….

9:40am: i am done waiting.  Oh did i mention for 20+ years i had a career in Customer Service/Business Operations Management.  I walk to the service desk and politely inform the service representative that it is time for her to go find out where my car is and then come back and explain to me how a standard service appointment could turn into a 3hr visit. This delay has put me behind on my chores. Even though I know Master will understand, it frustrates me because i don’t like not completing my chores in a timely fashion for Him.

9:45am: i am in the car. Before leaving i text Master that i am finished with the car and heading to the market. I assure Him all is well and i will text Him upon my return home. Then i call my dad to check in again. Now off to the market.

OK let’s take a breath and try to refocus on the remainder of the day.   

10:00am: Shopping and re-organizing my day. Will unload groceries, make sure dad has had breakfast, taken his medicine, feed the dog & cat, unload groceries, plan dad’s lunch, and begin cleaning.  Ok, this is still doable. Oh almost forgot, you are meeting Master at the gym tonight so the afternoon time schedule is shorter by 1 hour.

10:30am: Finally home. Pull into the driveway and prepare to unload the groceries. As i open the door into the sunroom i am greeted by a leaking roof…. Yes, the snow and ice are melting and we seem to have a leak. Two leaks to be exact.  Now i am scrambling to get towels, buckets set up and my 100lb Ridgeback wants to say hello and get my attention.  Dad is in his chair listening to the TV so loud the neighbors can hear it and i am about to exhaust the last tiniest ounce of graciousness and serves heart i think i have.

12:00pm: Buckets set, groceries unpacked and put away. Dog and cat are feed and walked. Time for dad’s lunch. First need to check in with Master. Actually i need a recharge and speaking with Master is comforting.  We touch on a few morning challenges, i gently share the leaky roof story and then we briefly review His day and i sign off with I love You and can’t wait to see You.

No drama

No panic

And no i don’t know what to do. Just Hello Master, all is well and I will see you soon.

— Trust me when i say. This was not easy. i was wrestling with myself and my urge to lash out and it took a great deal of commitment and dedication to my craft (service is my craft) to be able to keep things in perspective and not get crazy about things… This is something i am continually working at. Self-disciple in service. Yes this is a learned behavior and one i want to master.

1:30pm: Dad and i have had lunch. i finished cleaning the kitchen and dining room. Need to vacuum before dad naps. Then wash floors begin to plan tonight’s dinner.

Dad, goes in for His nap and i sort of bulldoze my way through the remaining chores.

3:00pm: Finally Done — Feeling a bit flustered and out of sorts. The day felt like such a disaster and i have all this unsettled energy… Chores are done; i have accomplished everything even with all the extremely challenging interruptions to my very organized and scheduled life. …

So why am i not focused and feeling good about my service?

What to do….

Now this is where i get to challenge myself and work on my growth. It is extremely selfish but i need to be in a good happy place when Master gets home. i need this for me as much as He needs it from me.

The time i spend with Him is shared with so many and that deep personal connection i give Him, that it special and belongs only to Him and me. So as much as possible i honestly do everything i can to be in a positive loving place when He comes home.

The one thing that always brings me back to my center and my need to serve is to do something Just for Master. Not because it needs to be done or because it was on the schedule. I do it because i know it always pleases Him.  Today i choose to iron His work shirts even though that was not due to be completed until Friday. What amazed me was that i even chose this because honestly it is my least favorite chore…. Truly… But today this task brought a smile to my face, it gave me a place to be quiet and reflect on my life and my amazing journey and it gave me a sense of accomplishment and pride in a job and day well done.

5:00pm: Serve dinner to dad and leave to meet Master at the gym.

6:00pm: Energizing working out with Master.

7:30pm: We return Home. Go to O/our room recite our (Afternoon mantra) Welcome Home Master, your slave missed You.

Master “It’s good to be home”. “Rise and service me”. Then, W/we enjoy a light diner salad and sharing O/our day –

8:30pm: Clean up dinner, Give dad a snack then prepare shower for Master.  Master and i shower together most evenings. I dry Him every evening.

9:00pm: Say good night to dad and retire for the evening with Master. We begin O/our evening with me on my knees in front of Master who is seated in His chair. We reconnect and commit O/ourselves to each other. O/our evening mantra. This is O/our way to refocus and center each other.  Reminded of each other’s place, roles and responsibilities in the relationship and the Master/slave lifestyle we have chosen.

W/we have once again reignited the passion and commitment to be Served and to serve. Then W/we take time to talk… Detailing with some lightheartedness and humor the day that could have been a complete disaster and cause of a serious mental break-down…and then to hear those healing words. “You did well, i am so proud of you. That’s my girl.”

10:00pm:  “Master, is there any other service this slave may provide Sir?” Yes as a matter of fact slave there is…. The rest of the night belongs to Master…For me, i ended my night safe and warm and tucked into the care and loving arms of my Master.

So in response to the article i referenced above. When you are feeling conflicted about your desires to be a submissive or slave because society says:

• “Being in a Dominant/submissive Relationship is Wrong”
• “Being Submissive Means You’re Weak”
• “Only Sick People Are Into BDSM”
• “A Person Should Always Make Their Own Decisions”
• “Submissives Are Mindless”

Ask yourself if the person who navigated through this day and ended it in the most wonderful, loving safe, happy place can be described by any of the above statements.

• Can you see the wrong in this relationship?
• Was i weak in my handling of the service reps. The flood or the overwhelming day?
• Is there anything sick about wanting to provide service and pleasure to the person who provides love, support, and commitment to you?
• Was i not able to decide how to organize the day? Did i not exhibit the ability and freedom to make a decision about the car and replacement part as well as follow up necessities to complete the job?
• What part of this day was an example of mindlessness?

Being a submissive/slave takes great commitment, desire and dedication to learning and growth and developing your craft. Yes i believe service in all its forms is a craft to be practiced and learned and developed and nurtured.

It takes strength and the willingness to communicate and trust. It means that you are open and available to serve and in that service to find peace, comfort and passion that can, in the safety of the right relationship, surpass even your most perfect fantasy.

It means suck it up- make the change – be gracious, look at yourself with a gentle critical honest eye and

move toward the person you desire to be. It is a life journey.

And most of the time the rewards for this hard work will far exceed your wildest dreams.

Respectfully,

slavekathleen